Bye 2016 and Hello 2017...

Ok, I know I am a little late to post this now. But yea, its my new year resolution post!

Bye 2016, as I went through a roller coaster ride because of my Jaw surgery and I am so so pleased with the results that I have today.

Well, CNY fourth day today and am sitting to listen to my heart. I reached 28 this year and somehow I feel I am stepping into my next phase of life. Pursuing what I really like and doing what I really love to do.

My new year resolution is easy for I find priorities in life...

Money was never my top priority, but family is. Love and relationships are ranked high and I love to have many friends, but not fame.

I have many interests, but non achieved and its time to start this year, before it becomes my new year resolution for the next year. Shall prepare to purchase my art equipments, my graphite pencils and my miniatures. Spotlight and art friend will be my next top to go places this year.

Volunteering is a to go and I will continue to head down to interact with my beneficiaries, as they do teach me alot everytime I am there. To be happy.

Studying is a may, as I have made my first step to apply for my Masters and awaiting my results.

Travelling, with friends or family. Anything will do. Well, Korea trip is planned (without my sis this time) and is definitely one off my bucket wishlist. Hopefully another with my whole family.

Well, lastly to stay healthy by exercising. This is definitely the most important and probably the hardest to achieve. A step at a time, I will want to start to do it and make it part of my daily life.

Well, that's about it. Seems a long list to me already.

Off to get beauty sleep, that is part of staying healthy.

Ciao,
Rachel

Day of the op - Day 0

Zooming back to the day of the operation, day 0...

Haha, weirdly I am posting photos of the operation on the actual day only 6 weeks after the operation. A photo of me in my 1st-night stay dress code. Haha.

I did complain about the xxxl size pants...

Well, so let me describe how the day went on the day of the operation and I am pretty sure that is what everyone whom is going for jaw operation would want to know.

Lying on the comfy personal ward bed in Changi Hospital, I looked out of the windows at the blue lights shining from the 'Changi' logo. I slept not alot, maybe only 1 to 2 hours. My droopy eyes focusing on the numbers on my phone, 6.50am. 3 minutes later, my nurse walked into the room to 'wake' me up. I smiled and crawled out of bed, the cool aircon air swiped my feet and I slipped into my slippers, getting ready to wash-up and get ready for my operation. But before I could wash-up, the nurse requested me to pack up my stuff so that she could lock my stuff into the locker while I am in the operating theatre. The nurse went off with my barang and came back soon later with a set of blue clothes, my operating gown. 'This was it', I told myself.

I picked up the gown, dragged my feet and went into my personal toilet. I looked into the mirror and breathed heavily to relax myself, telling myself that 'after today I would be a different person and this was what I had been waiting for for years'. I was eager, really looking forward to it. Then, I washed-up myself.

Just as I was done and walked out of my toilet, my parents came into my room. They looked anxious and really tired as they had to wake up really early to meet me before my operation. We chatted, while my mum helped me look better in the operating gown. The gown is super hard to wear, no buttons, no zap, just some strings and we took long to figure out how to wear the gown correctly. We waited till around 7.50am, a nurse walked in to check my heartbeat and asked me a few questions, whether I drank water over the past 8 hours and stuff. Another super friendly auntie chatted with my mum and guided me up my bed (the kind of bed when you see my movies/shows and being pushed into the operating theatre kind). I was slowly pushed out of my room and there I departed with my parents. My mum said 'Jia You Bao Bei', but my mind was in a whirl and I was too excited to be sad of the departure.

Trust me, the pushing of the bed as the friendly auntie chatting with me all felt so surreal. The ceiling lights flashed above me like those below. I thought those things only happen in movies. Hahaha. 

Soon I reached the waiting area, where all the patients going for operation wait for their surgeons to get ready and be pushed into the operating theatre. A few nurses approached me asking the same questions that the other nurse asked when in my ward. Friendly auntie saw me with my pale face brought me 2 warm and thick towels and placed over my whole body. For once, I felt so much warmth throughout my stay in the hospital. I was then left alone and got bored and eavesdropped on a grouchy uncle's conversation with other nurses as he explained his leg pain and why he needed the operation and kept repeating to make sure the nurses understood him. Not too long later, I heard a phone call to the nurse desk and the nurse replied 'Ok, Dr Lai is ready, can push patient into the operating theatre already'. So, off I went, pushed into the operating room.

Things were getting more exciting for me, as I knew it is a route of no return. I made the decision and I would definitely do it. Anesthetic doctor spoke to me and asked me about my profession, as he chatted he was already working on my hands, inserting needles left and right, ready to make me sleep. Alot more devices were placed on my body by 2 female nurses to monitor my breathing, heartbeat, etc. I was again pushed into a larger room, the room was huge. Not kidding, really huge, something like the one below. I was asked to shift my body to the operating table. I made myself comfortable and really soon (less than a minute), I was knocked off. Before the operation, I even told myself I wanted to say a few prayers before I get knocked out, but it was too fast and I just didn't have enough time. 

So my operation was about 10-11 hours long, but my family waited for about 13 hours before they could come see me, as I had to be placed under observation after the operation. My family below enjoying their wait with some wefies while I was still not awake.

Sis, Mum and Dad waiting for me. They were really worried, despite the smiles.

So fast forward, this is me after my op. After the op, I had blood transfused back into my body as I lost too much blood during the op. I woke up really groggy during the night around 10pm. Cotton buds placed in my nose and I couldn't breathe. Throughout the night, multiple times waking up just to request nurses to stick the suction tube into my stomach to get rid of the excess blood collated. It was like packs of blood being sucked out, abit exaggerating here. But the suction was the worst part of my entire operation. Throughout the night, my heartbeat was not stable, so dad and mum got worried and stayed for the night to take care of me. I had pulse taken every 5-10mins, I had pain medicine injected every few hours. I breathed hard, coughed and choked and managed the bed sore on my back.  I also had urinary bag attached, so had some discomfort too. Those few hours to the very next day was the most tortuous part, it felt like eternity and I always hope to see the sun the next moment I opened my eyes.

Oxygen mask to help me to breathe...

Dad and Mum, worried sick...

Dad held on to me whenever I couldn't breathe.

The next day waking up was so so good, because I had my urinary bag taken out and I went to get some x-ray taken. The best part was taking my cotton buds in my nose out. When those cotton buds 'popped out', I inhaled as much air as I could, like I had not breathed for years. I shall not share much what happened later, but below is me pushed back to my ward to drink water after meeting my surgeon and breathing normally.

I shared my happiness with a 'twist'.

I had not regretted making that decision to do the operation and I knew it would be tough. Embrace the pain, tolerate and everything would be over. I told myself, if others can do it, so can I. So can you too!

Ciao,
Rachel

1 month post jaw surgery op...

Yep, officially 1 month and 2 days post op already:)

Rating:

Swelling: My face is still swollen! Ahhh... and its only a week away from gg back to work. My right swollen cheek and upper lip makes me feel irritated.

Pain: Almost none, except for the occasional pain of biting on my own swollen cheeks (1/10)

Numbness: Regained sensation in most areas of cheeks and chin, except for the lower left side of my chin. (6/10)

Speaking ability: I can speak now, but because my mouth cannot open big enough to pronounce properly, I look like I am always biting on something when speaking.

Eating: I am still on soft food diet, able to take porridge, blends, yoghurt, ice cream and mee sua! I satisfied one craving already, Tom Yam Mee Sua Feeding on spoon and fork only. I can drink from the cup already, so I am using less straws now.

So yep, a rough update about my recovery. Well, overall its still doing good, and I am pretty much happy with my face shape and bite now.

Thinking back on the day before the op....omg, so much have happened. Ok, my next post will be on what actually happened the day before and the op day.


Ciao for now
Rachel

16 days post Jaw Operation...

Yes, its been 16 days post op already, time flies.

Still shuddering at the thought of the first night after op. Wells, its over. Whew.

So what happened since post op day 4 till now? I got my elastics removed on 4th July 2016!!! Basically, the zig-zag configuration of the elastic bands were removed so that I can now practice moving my jaw. Another good news is, I have graduated from drinking from the syringe to using straws. Now that I can move my jaw slightly, I can open my mouth to eat mashed potatoes, eat porridge and also drank AVOCADO Juice! Slurps!

So much have improved over the short week, but what concerns me now is my bite. Recently, I tried to move my tongue around in my mouth and realized that some of my molar were still not biting, not touching. This freaked me out! I done a huge op just to correct my jaw, I am so afraid that the op did not put my jaws in the correct place! :O This coming Monday I would be meeting my surgeon again and would be asking him about it.

Well, other that than the panicky stuff that I just shared, my swelling have subsided much. Though some swelling came back after my appointment with the surgeon when he tried to remove my elastics, it did hurt quite abit. Putting ice pack over my face often, hoping that it helps with the swelling. Its gg to be less than a month that I would be thrown back to the society and working world again, so I need to recover real fast.

Another thing that I would like to share, I have not been out of home since my op, other than my appointments at the hospitals with my surgeon and dietitian. Talking about dietitian, I think I gained about 1.5 kg since my last post. Hopefully, I can pass my weight exam coming Monday. I would be gg out for the first time in 2 plus weeks to NUS for my sister's convocation! Whee, finally going to get out and meet the world...

Well, in my next post. I will start to share photos of my op and my recover process. Stay tuned.

Ciao,
Rachel

Heyo, I am back

Sorry for I was away for a long long while and guess what it is 4 days post operation already.

I am in pain. I would by lying if I said I didn't.

Thank my parents for taking care of me throughout these few days.

Now that I have abit more energry, I decided to update a little about my past few days.

My operation was on 21st June 2016. On 22nd June, I was brought back to my ward at around 9.30pm at night. All drowsy and nauseous. Truthfully, I vomitted alot alot of blood. The suction device/thing sort of saved my life, as it practically sucked out my whole stomach of blood.

The first night was horrendous, as the continual suction churns up my whole stomach and that basically sums up my first night. Struggling through the very first night. 

The next day I woke up still in lots of pain and because I did a nose job to remove a lump of flesh in my nose, my nose was stuffed with 2 long cotton buds. The cotton buds blocked my entire nasal system and early in the morning I was so glad to hear that doctors would be removing my cotton buds to let me breathe normally.

So the 2nd day, I started to breathe again and started on my journey of liquid diet. I am still on my liquid diet now and I will have to pull through that for at least 2 weeks. Trust me, at this point of time I am craving for alot alot of food. Tom Yam noodles, my favourite.

Its going to be a long journey ahead and I will bite my teeth and fight on. Literally bitting my teeth as my jaws are shut tight with wires and elastics now.

I am home now with my family and resting up alot. My next appointment with my surgeon is on 27th June 2016. Hopefully all goes well.

I shall end my post and pardon the sloppy post. I am just typing whatever that goes through my mind.

Adios, I will be back for another post a few days later.

Rachel

Random Doodle

Random Doodle

*Picked my Dad's Samsung Note 5 up* and started to pick up the sylus and doodled this picture above in 10-15mins.

Well, guess now drawing becomes so much easier and faster.

Try doodling now...

Rachie

Merry Christmas...

Merry Christmas to peeps reading my blog!

It's Christmas in advance and soon to be New Year! I am getting into the holiday mood already.

I am feeling a little blue recently, not too sure why actually. There is something in my heart and mind that is bothering me, but there is no actual reason to it. hmm...

Every year end, I always do my new year resolutions and this year I am happy to tell everyone that I think I achieved quite alot this year. I have changed to a satisfying job (after a transfer) and have great friends around at work place. I have made new friends at my volunteer work. I have taken up the leadership role and managed to explore the role and inspired my life in volunteering. I have finally have the courage to do my braces and agreed to the surgery which my dentist encouraged. I have learnt to cherish people around me more and importantly to love myself more.

Maybe sometimes in live, we really won't know what will happen in future. I may be sad over something at one time, but we will realize that actually this sadness is temporary and after some time, this sadness will wash away. Maybe you would be interested to know why I am saying this, I am just saying what I am feeling over the past few years, live goes on. 还是要幸福.:)

还是要幸福 from Hebe田馥甄

This song accompanied me through two years and was the song that made me feel better at my lowest point, telling me that I should be strong and not be lonely again. Still love this song.

So, what I want to say is this year is a great year that pulled me to greater heights, more adventures and more company and I hope to have a fruitful one ahead of me. Sounds too early to say now, but actually year end is not too far away. Have a great year end everyone! :D